i'm trouble and a complete waste of your precious time.

he always puts it on when we're together :]

Regina Spektor- Samson

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
The bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But there just soft light, there just soft light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
He told me i was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
and kissed me till the morning light, the morning light
and he kissed me till the morning light

Samson came back to bed
not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

1. I am a legit asshole and usually can't help it.

2. I hate 98% of the females that I meet. 95% are unaware of this.

3. I don't cry unless I get injured physically. I just can't do it.

4. I trust maybe four people, and it's taken them years to earn it.

5. I honestly don't think that I'm pretty.

6. I hate tweens.

7. I'm a pack rat like no other.

8. I want to be covered in tattoos eventually.

9. I'm a great friend, even if you aren't worth it.

10. I have zero patience with most people.

11. I'm friends with a whole lot of guys.

12. I get super bratty if I don't get what I want.

13. My nickname in my family since I was little is Princess.

14. I'm awful honest.

15. But I'm a flawless liar.

16. I don't get jealous. I get angry. So don't try to get me jealous.

17. I assume that every guy I date is cheating on me.

18. I'm not sure if I've ever actually truly been in love.

19. I get super self conscious.

20. I don't do any drugs and I hate people who don't understand why.

21. I have a need to prove myself to people, and to prove people wrong.

22. I have absolutely no problem deleting people from my life, or doing it in the most ruthless way possible.

23. If you betray me, I never forgive you.

24. I don't want to have children. Like ever.

25. I'm extremely iffy about marriage. Divorce is expensive.

26. I get panic attacks in my sleep. Apparently.

27. I talk in my sleep.

28. I only say sorry when I am actually sorry. Contrary to popular belief I do not just say it to say it.

29. I don't actually miss people, unless they're gone for good.

30. I always feel awful plain.

31. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing, or why I do the things I do.

32. My mother is my absolute favorite person in the world. I would jump in front of any deadly object for her.

33. If you hurt me, I will say anything to hurt you just as badly.

34. I'm a lot smarter than many people give me credit for.

35. I am a complete nerd.

36. I know that I'm a tomboy and I can't understand why most people don't see it.

37. I laugh at the most unnecessary times.

38. I still sleep with a stuffed animal.

39. I check my phone just to check it. No. I am not waiting for something specific.

40. I could sleep for 24 strait hours if given the option.

41. I prefer to sleep alone.

42. I would rather be freezing cold than burning hot.

43. I dwell on everything and over analyze everything.

44. I ignore 75% of the phone calls that I receive.

45. I'm really shallow.

46. I sing really obnoxiously loud in the car. Mostly to see people laughing at me in the next car over.

47. I'm shameless.

48. I don't have many morals... but I am getting better about it.

49. I would rather sit in than go out.

50. Going to the movies is my favorite. I see most movies in theaters more than once.

51. I've tried to quit smoking about 77 times. I have succeeded 0 times.

52. I love driving.

53. I read more than most people.

54. I like attention.

55. I drink way too much coffee.

56. I spend too much money.

57. I always accidentally lead people on.

58. I'm extremely flirty.

59. I will only wear dark colored nail polish.

60. I hate Chinese food.

61. I sketch.

62. If I like you, I want you around me a lot.

63. Holding hands is one of my favorite things. Its scientifically proven that it relaxes you.

64. I pick my boys based on science. If I like how they smell, if we walk at the same stride, if our interactions aren't awkward, and if we can hold eye contact for more than five seconds, there is a good chance that we're a biological match and I'm going to like him.

65. I don't like talking about emotional shit.

66. I hate talking on the phone.

67. You can tell how I am feeling, even if I try to hide it.

68. I'm a hypochondriac.

69. I drive way too fast.

70. I laugh at everything. It's probably more funny than you realize.

71. I agree with people to make them shut up.

72. I can make myself believe whatever I want.

73. I'm addicted to wendys.

74. I'm very rarely hungry to the point where I HAVE to eat. I usually eat because I think that I should.

75. I love Fall Out Boy. Keep your opinions to yourself.

76. I never let people win arguments. They're usually wrong.

77. I can be selfish, but I am absolutely not a selfish person.I put most people's needs before my own.

78. I care.

79. Money could absolutely make me happy.

80. I hate going home... but I love being at home. Very odd.

I think 80 is enough.

this is my inspiration:

[IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v296/ilovepickles688/jemhead.jpg[/IMG]

i wish my hair was still pink :[

so i haven't done one of these in a while. ya know been busy doing nothing.
as far as the boy goes i kicked his stupid ass to the curb. since when was 3 girlfriends at once ok? umm never. thanks.
a word to all you males out there. if one of you ever fuck me over the way he did i will castrate you cuz im almost positive that you'll deserve it as much as he does.
i need a vacation. someone fly me to cali :]

A wise girl kisses, but doesn't love.
Listens, but doesn't believe...
and leaves before she is left.

I used to be such a smart girl. I got lost somewhere along the way.

add my myspace :]

www.myspace.com/shitheadiscalling

xo

does anyone else have theirs done? i got mine a few days ago and i feel like there might be somethin wrong with it... i need opinions!

i hate myself.

why wasnt i smarter?

i cant believe i let myself get used.

im looking for permanent teal hair dye! im putting a little bit in my hair and redying my hair black as it is no longer black anymore! but wah! i cant find anything permanent teal! all i can find is the stuff they have at hottopic and i hate hate putting bleach in my hair but i think i might have to, unless anyone knows where to find permanent teal! bah, lemme know. i wanna do my hair soon. im redoin the black probably tommorow night!

this is the top group on the home page :)

yay lps!!

ugh this is the 2nd time im writing this blog! my comp keeps hating on me! well actually i think it might be the internet but whatever...

i got my monroe! very exciting! erin got her lip looks amazing obv. the only bad part is that ive notice people lookin at me like im weird like theyre better than me. not my fault some people dont know how to express themselves! gah i dont care. my parents havent seen yet but i told her on the phone. she didnt seem too pissed itll be fine cuz piercings arent even permanent! i found a pic online of the ladywith the most piercings in the world just in case they get upset so i can show them im not that bad could be worse! wah not a big deal at all!

im sad my sister moved to ny this morning! wahwahwah! she abandoned me in dumb boring quincy to go to super awesome exciting ny!! no fair! it sucks i didnt get to go and everyone else did i couldnt get work off. me and erin get to take trips to ny now though so its all good!

so have you guys added lipstick prophets yet? i sure hope so! exciting presale starts tommorow! check out the new collection!
www.lipstickprophets.com
and add them as a friend for myspace!
www.myspace.com/lipstickprophets

will you guys buzz my stuff if you look at it plleeaassee?? cuz it tells me how many veiws i have but then i have no buzz or comments :'( so do it up lovers!

also if your the proud owner of a myspace add Lipstick Prophets!

www.myspace.com/lipstickprophets

thanks!

so pretty much like ass is how im feeling these days. i cant keep the boy by my side and it hurts a ton. im having panic attacks and crying alot. whatever happens i guess. i got to put in my 2 weeks notice for my lame ass job so i can work a job that is slightly less terrible your lookin at the next coffee break baristaaa. dying my hair black hope it goes well, actually i hope the dying of the eyebrows goes well as i dont want it to leak into my eyes and ill go blind. maybe that wouldnt be too bad tho i dont have to see all the ugly shit of the world and i dont have to look at my royal patheticness either. i hate knowing how shitty i look and having to deal with it i wish that i could just sleep for a month till everything bad goes away on its own. on a better know i think im finally figurin out who i am and me comes complete with dyed hair peircings tattoos skulls rock and roll and a mother fucking potty mouth. deal with it assholes. the past week has been the worst and im sure its not gonna get better i dont wanna deal with anything worse.

 

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